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January 26th, 2009

it’s been a long time coming @ 10:10 am

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i’ve loved the song “light years away” by mozella for a long time now, well before i could ever even relate to it. after the breakup last year, its words were comforting but presented me with the foreign concept of forgiveness and moving on. ever since then, i have anxiously awaited the day i could finally hear the song and feel it 100%. well, i just realized the other day that i’ve finally reached that day.

here are the lyrics:

It's almost like you had it planned
It's like you smiled and shook my hand and said
"Hey, I'm about to screw you over big time"
And what was I supposed to do?
I was stuck in between you and hard place
We won't talk about the hard place

But I don't blame you anymore
That's too much pain to store
It left me half dead
Inside my head
And boy, looking back I see
I'm not the girl I used to be
When I lost my mind
It saved my life

It's how you wanted it to be
It's like you played a joke on me
And I lost a friend
In the end
And I think that I cried for days
But now that seems light years away
And I'm never going back
To who I was

Cause I don't blame you anymore
That's too much pain to store
It left me half dead
Inside my head
And boy, looking back I see
I'm not the girl I used to be
When I lost my mind
It saved my life

I think that I cried for days
But now that seems light years away
And I'm never going back
To who I was

Cause I don't blame you anymore
That's too much pain to store
It left me half dead
Inside my head
And boy, looking back I see
I'm not the girl I used to be
When I lost my mind
It saved my life

That life seems like light years away
Light years away
And that life seems like light years away
Light years away

thomas, what you and she did to me was very wrong, especially the latter situation, and i doubt i’ll ever forget that sting. however, i’m over it. i’m a different person now, and my life has gone on just fine without you in it…something i once thought could not ever be possible. that being said, i’m absolutely okay, and i have been for awhile now. i’m at peace with what happened, and it doesn’t bother me anymore.

kudos to justin for showing me this song so very long ago, and kudos to mozella for putting these emotions so beautifully into music.

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January 22nd, 2009

time flies, eh? @ 07:47 pm

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so here we are nearing the end of january, and it seems like we were ringing in the new year yesterday. wait, who am i kidding? it seems like we were ringing in 2008 just yesterday. dang.

anyway, so nothing’s really gone on here lately. i’ve helped nicole sell a lot of stuff online…some Manolo Blahnik shoes, some video games, etc. i’ve been reading a lot of stuff for school, going to work…nothing else much. i’ve spent a lot of time in douglas lately taking care of bess (who’s currently residing with my parents) since my landlord won’t allow puppies to stay here. i’m hoping to have her back here come may…i’m anxiously awaiting it.

anyway, that’s about it, really. as for the last entry, my friends are doing alright. they’re doing the best they can, i mean…they’re just grateful to be alive and well. the friend who was sexually assaulted is seeking counseling, and she’s being extremely strong. i’m so proud of her; she’s such an amazing woman. i thank you all on their behalf for all your prayers, good vibes, thoughts, etc. they’ve definitely needed it.

that being said…that’s the end of this blog entry.

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January 17th, 2009

Robbery @ 08:22 am

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On Thursday afternoon, some of my friends were robbed at gunpoint in their own apartment…one of said friends was raped twice in the process. Everyone’s okay, though, and my friend seems to be holding herself together really well…she’s very strong. Please send good vibes to them all.

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January 15th, 2009

stella. @ 11:09 pm

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jacob’s dog stella was hit and killed by a car today. she was like, the family dog for our little family. she had a tremendous personality that reminded one of a little old lady friend who tagged along wherever we went. i’m going to miss her sleeping beside me, hogging the bed. stella

stellaluna

i’ll see you in strawberry fields, stellaluna.

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January 13th, 2009

ugh! @ 08:03 am

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ever since new management took over my apartment complex, they’ve started this rule that you can’t have puppies or kittens. animals have to be at least a year old before you get them. this is unfair, if you ask me, because it seems like they’re trying to keep people from obtaining new animals…it’s like they’re only allowing animals that were with the residents once they moved in.

anyway, so the bug guy comes today, and a maintenance man came with him. well, said maintenance man– who’s never said shit about carli, norma jean, etc.– effing tattles on me to the management. i got a call soon after they came by from the front office, telling me i can’t keep a puppy here. i said it was my friend’s dog and i was puppy-sitting for the time being. either way, i’ve got a find a place for bess to go since i know they’ll be checking throughout the week to see whether or not the puppy’s still here.

i’m so upset. ugh.

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January 11th, 2009

one of the best movie scenes of 2008 @ 09:38 pm

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from pineapple express:

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January 9th, 2009

random lists 1 & 2 @ 06:35 pm

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the things my grandma and i always watch on TV together:

  • the golden girls
  • antiques roadshow
  • WALB
  • dateline
  • meerkat manor
  • crime scene investigation shows (law & order, cold case, TruTV stuff, etc.)

the things my daddy and i always watch on TV together:

  • nature shows
  • antique car auctions
  • headline news
  • the weather channel
  • WALB

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January 7th, 2009

ch-ch-changes! @ 06:30 pm

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after several days of wii fit action, i’ve decided that i really love it. i got it for christmas, and bek and jacob and i have been playing it since i got back. it’s fun, it’s active, and it tracks your progress! so awesome.

i got an ipod touch for christmas, as well, and had to send it off to the apple folks the other day. once i tried to install the latest software update, it wasn’t being recognized anymore by my computer. i couldn’t even restore the thing. it was terribly, terribly frustrating! here’s hoping they can fix it…and if not, maybe they can just send me a new one. =P

today, nicole, jacob, and i went to grand bay. it was chilly but nice outside. we had a pretty good time. lola grace (jacob’s shih-tzu puppy) slept in my hoodie pocket nearly the entire time. i swear. yes, it’s effing precious.

so…there’s about to be a huge change at my apartment regarding my, uh, vast assortment of wildlife. norma jean, my rat, is going back to her original owner, and carli sue, my cat, is more than likely going to live with my supervisor, elizabeth. she’s going to be an outdoor cat, something i think she needed to be, anyway, due to her nasty attitude. i’m really sad to let her go, but i’ve been thinking about it for awhile now. i think she’ll be a lot happier outside, anyway. regardless, i’m pretty sad to give her up, even if she IS a heinous bitch…she’s sweet about 20% of the time, honestly.

why am i giving my animals up? well, this is where i probably seem nasty and selfish. lola grace’s sister, elizabeth, needs a home, and i’m going to get her. i’m VERY excited about owning a shih-tzu puppy. i’ve wanted a shih-tzu for a very long time, and i’m confident i can raise her well. i feel terrible about having to give up 2 animals for the dog, but i think ultimately, it’s for the best.

what do YOU think?

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December 24th, 2008

some of my favorite people in the world @ 11:00 am

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The Former Neogang
Justin, Mark, Samantha, and me

The Family
me, Jacob, Stella, and Beka

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December 19th, 2008

wishspace profile. haha. @ 11:51 am

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